Becoming a Mother

I started writing this post around Mother’s Day, and never finished it .. Then I just saw it lingering in my drafts section! So here is the finished thought …

I was always the girl that “was never gonna have kids”. I always saw my future as being married, owning my own successful business, travelling and being the “cool aunt”! I don’t know what it was, but I just never really planned on having kids. I didn’t even play “mommy” with those baby dolls that little girls have.

Now don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I didn’t like kids. I was actually very “good” with kids. I just never saw myself having my own. Who knows, maybe I was scared of the responsibility or didn’t think I would be a good mom.

Either way, if you have been following my blog you will know I found out I was pregnant very late (21 and a half weeks to be exact!!). That same day, we also found out we were having a boy! The emotions that came over me where so overwhelming, but at the same time the instant bond and love I had with this little baby inside of me was unbelievable.

All of a sudden it was as if I had forgotten about all those doubts or thoughts I had in my past, instead I felt so happy and blessed to be given the gift of having a child. Every kick or turn I felt made me smile and feel so lucky, and the day I got to hold my healthy little prince in my arms was the best day of my life.

 
I felt like a whole new woman; a stronger, more confident woman. My life now really has a purpose, and my son never fails to put a smile on my face and make me laugh everyday. 

   I understand motherhood isn’t for everyone, but let me tell you… as a former girl that never wanted kids I am the happiest woman ever, now that I have my son!  

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